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hey everyone!DAMN I HAVENT BEEN ON HERE INFOREVER!!-lol- well just dropping into post up some beliefs!

-kat

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hey!

well my spring break actually did end up going pretty well.I went back ova to Ryan's house and hung out with him and john we had fun acting stupid and then we went to Six flags on friday. John rode his first roller coaster and screamed his ass off!!-lol- you should all check out my myspace too cuz it kicks ass!lalal I dont really have much to say..sorry~~

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kat!

Currently Listening If Only You Were Lonely Version A By Hawthorne Heights Saying Sorry see related

boredom

hey all well nothing much has been happenign lately. My mother made me come home from my friend John's house after we got back from the mall with Ryan >.< blah!I was having fun too. We went to steak and shake after the mall with Ry's dad and step mom it was kewl..Ryan couldnt drink all of his shake it was sooo funny becuz we almost made him spew it out everywhere!!mwhahaha!^.~ now he knows whut it feels like to be tickled when you drinking something..isn't that right RYAN! :-p -lol-! 8 months and three days we have been going out and I love him sooooo much! Ryan is what helps me get through day by day. Without my friends,Ryan, and my little brother....I don't think I would still be here putting up with my mom's bitching all of the time. She made me come home just so I could sit at home by myself for hours...then when she gets home I have to listen to her bitch about how life isnt ours..no matter what we think...THEN! to top it all of she talks about me like Im not even here. Crying myself to sleep every night isn't really working out anymore! I need something bigger and better to make the pain stop. No not like cutting or killing myself..I got over that a lonnnnng time ago. I don't know I just wish I had something to do to get myself away from her. She acts like this is gonna be the first time I have ever spent a week away from home. Blah...I do go to the lake every spring break and not see you allllllll week MOTHER! UGH! blah I need something to do she is turning me intoa  fucking phsyco!

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KAT

Currently Listening Page Avenue By Story of the Year Anthem of Our Dying Day see related

hey all whut tis up?

Well I am sorry to all of you that it took me so long to reply to all of the wonderful comments I have gotten over the past few days!BUT i finnally did it. I love you JOHN!! Im so sorry about whut happend..but its a gewd thing to u know ^.^...she's home now! Blah my family life sucks. My grandparents have decided to give my mom one last chance before they decide to send her to rehab. I may be getting the building in the backyard to be my new room..so I actually have my own room here. YUSH! It will be kewl because they wont be able to tell me to turn my music down or get mad at me for sleeping so long..because I will have a key bitches!John, Jessica, and Moriah thank you for holding me on Wednesday and letting me cry on your shoulder!I really needed that. Well its spring Break finally......but I have nothing to do because I got left by my cousins..as in they forgot about me and decided they would rather go to the lake without me. Jackasses. So yeh Im stuck here...nothing to do...just being bored. Tomorrow however..my lucky self (note the sarcasm) gets to go to Brusters with one person I dont know and another person I dont like. OH JOY! blah life really does suck ass for me 24/7..but on the bright side me and Ryan have been together for 8 months since yesterday. Im so happy..I love him so much. This entry will be really long and alot of people may not even read it all...but oh well. On the downside again though, I ripped away my life yesterday..and I oculdn't cry because I didnt want my mom in my business anymore than she already is. I went to Mike's house and tore down my posters because they tape would have wripped them to shreds anyways. So it sucked ass and my eyes kept tearing up the whoel time. i took eveything off my walls and brought down all my lights. Im going to have to pack most of it up until we move..so basically I dont have my own room and thats why I dont invite anyone over ot my house >.< blah..life sucks ass.

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Courtney.

Currently Listening MMHMM By Relient K My Girl's Ex-Boyfriend see related

Hey everyone!!

well I dont really have much to say about today. It was pretty lame to tell you the truth. My Jessica is sick >.<!! She should get better soon though...well she better -lol-. Well alot of drama just keeps coming my way it is really getting annoying. Me adn John are bickering now. Im trying to work it out though because i Love him to much to argue with him. So I dhall post some thoughts about a guy  and some lyrics that describe my drama.

You told me you loved me...and only me. It made my heart swell and put a permanent smile on my face. Just to hear the words actually come fomr you and not out of a note or a phone recieve and to be able to look in your eyes as you say the three sweet little words.......its like those movie moments were you steal the line. "I wouldn't trade this moment for the world." 

This may seem familiar to someone......

I think you know what I'm getting at
I find it so upsetting that
the memories that you select you keep the bad but the good you just forget

and even though I'm angry I can still say
I know my heart will break the day
when you peel out and drive away
I can't believe this happened

And all this time I never thought
that all we had would be all for naught

No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
No, I don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know I'll always love you
but right now I just don't like you
cause you took this too far

Make your decision and don't you dare think twice
go with your instincts along with some bad advice
this didn't turn out the way I thought it would at all
you blame me but some of this is still your fault

I tried to move you, but you just wouldn't budge
I tried to hold your hand but you'd rather hold your grudge
I think you know what I'm getting at
you said goodbye and I just don't want you regretting that

and wisdom always chooses
these black eyes and these bruises
over the heartache that they say
never completely goes away
(I just can't believe this happened
and one day we'll see this come around)

what happened to us
i heard that it's me we should blame
what happened to us
why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
and know that I don't hate you
and know that I don't want to fight you
and know that I'll always love you
but right now I just don't...

† KAT †